............

What is it?
if not love.

nothing is true

if it is not true at this
very moment,

nothing is real

if it is not real
in front front me

there is no problem
if I can't look into its eyes

I want the chaos
to destroy everything

a complete helplessness
should prevail

everywhere

nothing should be left
to tell the story of
the sufferings it went through.

love is the trauma
love is the panacea

love is the question and
it is the answer,

it is the truth you want to seek
it is the lie you don't want to hear,

it is everything you want
and it is everything you don't want

,.............

why..?

Why I can't speak to you?

because you are happy in your own world and I am not,

because I bring back memories and promise
no future for them,

because your priorities have changed and not mine,

because you have moved on  and I am still here,

..........

And my fears
never came true,

but they continued
to haunt me,

in a way they
motivated me to do
something about my present situation,

they were the change agents

positive as well as negative;

they took my happiness
but they made me strong

strong enough to fight
and remain tall in all the circumstances

we come to know ourselves
when we are in pain and lonely,

because then nobody is around us
and we can see ourselves better,

somebody said
in the movie I was watching this afternoon.